confused confessions

I guess I will type just to make that empty screen go away...

We are nine days away from our departure and life has become a complete whirlwind of activity. So many things to accomplish! I am not a list maker, but I have resorted to it during these times of not being able to remember anything because my brain is so full of everything. It seems a bit comical to me that not one of us can remember what day of the week it is or what the calendar date is, but are all more than able and willing to let the whole world know that "we are nine days away from that big plane ride across the sea".

Everywhere I turn I seem to see "stuff" and ~for the first time in my life~ I am not bothered by it. **gasp** I haven't even attempted to organize my chaos or straighten up the mini disasters and piles I see accumulating here and there and everywhere. **gasp** I suppose what is happening in my head is overflowing into my reality. Ha! :)

There is really no point to what I am writing today. I am not sure I can formulate any thought provoking ideas or concepts. I suppose writing to document the reality that I don't think I will remember what I am writing is sorta pointless since I am clueless to what I am writing about.

Point taken?

I confess that I am just baffled that God has been so good to trust us to bring us to this point. As I (confusingly) look back upon these past two years I see His hand molding and shaping me in such an intimate and personal way... funny, since I keep saying this journey is not about me, but about serving Him. And here we are ready to embark on the next step and what I more than evidently see is how He has blessed and loved me and changed me by His perfect grace to reach this exact point.

It's that intimacy in our relationship that keeps me striving to make Him known. I can't keep the knowledge of His goodness and love for myself. I must make Him known to the ends of the earth. And that may be exactly where He is taking me. I can't wait to get there!