I am warrior princess
I think I have written about my identity before. Yup, almost positive I have. It seems like I have worked through who I am over and over and over again. Maybe it's a weakness of mine because of my life story... being a MK (missionary kid) and what not. Maybe it's a weakness of mine because of what I do... being a mom... being a missionary. Maybe it's just a weakness of mine because God made me with a deep desire to know who He is and as a result I struggle with who I am. Yeah, I like that idea best. Any ol' way, my identity is something I take way serious. I want to be real. The real me. I want to look different than you. Whether it is in the clothes I wear, the color I paint my nails, the makeup I paint on my face, the tattoos I color my life with... whatever avenue I can find I want to be me. Not like you. (Though, I am sure you are all wonderful!) I want to just be me.
So, who am I? I have lots of titles. I am wife. I am mom. I am missionary. I am cook. I am maid. ;) I am organizer. I am writer. I am friend. I am daughter. I am sister. I am aunt. I am Mama D (my hostel kid's name for me). I am. I am. I am.
Do my titles determine my identity?
So, who am I? Quite often when life begins to take a new twist and turn this "who am I" is more at the forefront of my mind. Soon I will be mom of a college kid, and even sooner I will no longer be mom to hostel kids. I will be a missionary on furlough for the first time. Some friendships will be reunited again after long times and crazy experiences have happened all while at the same time great distances will grow between friendships that I have here that will rock my core. So I will be friends, but in a different way. And once again I will be that dreaded weird missionary chick raising support. Yipee for change. (Uh oh, did I say that out loud?) *sheepish grin*
Do my circumstances determine my identity?
So, who am I? Lately, for some odd reason it's been more about who I am not. Something happens and then in my fuddled mind it determines who I am not. I lose my temper (shocker, I know) and suddenly I am not grown up enough. I struggle with helping my high school senior write her scholarship essay and suddenly I am not smart enough. I fail at perfecting dinner and then I am not good enough. I mean I am cook, so...
Do my failures determine my identity?
I am working through a Priscilla Shirer study now called 'Gideon. Your weakness. God's STRENGTH.'. Yesterday in the study Priscilla wrote, "No matter how you feel, what the Scripture says about you is true."
And the Word tells me:
in 1 Peter 2:9 "you are a chosen people. You are royal priests... God’s very own possession"
in Colossians 2:10 "you also are complete through your union with Christ"
in Matthew 5:14 "You are the light of the world"
in Romans 8:17 "we are his children, we are his heirs"
in Judges 6:12 "God is with you, O mighty warrior!" (Faye, this post is for you. We are warrior princesses!!)
and in Romans 1:7 "You are who you are through this gift and call of Jesus Christ!"
I am chosen. I am God's very own possession. I am complete. I am the light of the world. I am His child. I am a warrior princess! And I am who I am because of what Jesus has done for me. Not because of me, but because of Him. I haven't earned who I am. It's not something I can lose. It's just who I am. It's just me.
One of my favorite verses and very importantly, the theme for my next tattoo (yes, Mom, I will get more), comes from Psalm 139:14 "I am fearfully and wonderfully made". Even though I struggle with allowing my titles to form my identity. Even when I am at loss for who I am. Even when I battle in my mind with my circumstances determining who I am. Even when I am hormonal! (Can I get an 'amen!' from all my sisters for that?!) Even when I fail. No matter what I do or where I go...
I am warrior princess.
So, who am I? I have lots of titles. I am wife. I am mom. I am missionary. I am cook. I am maid. ;) I am organizer. I am writer. I am friend. I am daughter. I am sister. I am aunt. I am Mama D (my hostel kid's name for me). I am. I am. I am.
Do my titles determine my identity?
So, who am I? Quite often when life begins to take a new twist and turn this "who am I" is more at the forefront of my mind. Soon I will be mom of a college kid, and even sooner I will no longer be mom to hostel kids. I will be a missionary on furlough for the first time. Some friendships will be reunited again after long times and crazy experiences have happened all while at the same time great distances will grow between friendships that I have here that will rock my core. So I will be friends, but in a different way. And once again I will be that dreaded weird missionary chick raising support. Yipee for change. (Uh oh, did I say that out loud?) *sheepish grin*
Do my circumstances determine my identity?
So, who am I? Lately, for some odd reason it's been more about who I am not. Something happens and then in my fuddled mind it determines who I am not. I lose my temper (shocker, I know) and suddenly I am not grown up enough. I struggle with helping my high school senior write her scholarship essay and suddenly I am not smart enough. I fail at perfecting dinner and then I am not good enough. I mean I am cook, so...
Do my failures determine my identity?
I am working through a Priscilla Shirer study now called 'Gideon. Your weakness. God's STRENGTH.'. Yesterday in the study Priscilla wrote, "No matter how you feel, what the Scripture says about you is true."
And the Word tells me:
in 1 Peter 2:9 "you are a chosen people. You are royal priests... God’s very own possession"
in Colossians 2:10 "you also are complete through your union with Christ"
in Matthew 5:14 "You are the light of the world"
in Romans 8:17 "we are his children, we are his heirs"
in Judges 6:12 "God is with you, O mighty warrior!" (Faye, this post is for you. We are warrior princesses!!)
and in Romans 1:7 "You are who you are through this gift and call of Jesus Christ!"
I am chosen. I am God's very own possession. I am complete. I am the light of the world. I am His child. I am a warrior princess! And I am who I am because of what Jesus has done for me. Not because of me, but because of Him. I haven't earned who I am. It's not something I can lose. It's just who I am. It's just me.
One of my favorite verses and very importantly, the theme for my next tattoo (yes, Mom, I will get more), comes from Psalm 139:14 "I am fearfully and wonderfully made". Even though I struggle with allowing my titles to form my identity. Even when I am at loss for who I am. Even when I battle in my mind with my circumstances determining who I am. Even when I am hormonal! (Can I get an 'amen!' from all my sisters for that?!) Even when I fail. No matter what I do or where I go...
I am warrior princess.
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