filtered: He forgot about me
A few days ago I complied a document for our church board about what we have been up to this furlough and what still needs to happen for us to return to serving in Papua New Guinea (in less than four months). Did I mention we are planning on moving back to the other side of the planet in less than four months?? I read what I wrote a few times over to check my spelling and grammar, cause y'all know how I like to mix things up, put in random words and misspell all sorts of stuff. After proofing it to the best of my ability I was feeling really overwhelmed. To see e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. left to do laid out right there in my face on three pages, single-spaced... um, yeah. Wow.
There is so much work that has to be done.
And yet I feel like here I am. Stuck. With my face shoved into a brick wall with wheels spinning and burning rubber underneath my feet. Going. NO. Where.
Or so it seems.
I have to tell ya, I have been telling God that a lot lately. It goes something like this and usually involves tears, "Hi, yes it's me again. Um, so, yeah... we are like still trying to make it to PNG and stuff. And so furlough is almost up and we are still waiting on You. We have so much work to do!! Please provide, like we know You can and will. But, if you wanna hurry a little bit that's okay. Actually it would be more than okay. Yeah, I really want you to hurry now. Cause we are running out of time. And if you don't wanna hurry that's okay too, but won'tcha cut us a little slack and give us something good? Something to keep our hope? A new partner? An increase in support? A way to pay for airfare? Won't you let me see even just a glimpse of the good You are going to do?"
Not real pretty, but it's my heart and He knows it and can take it... so I justspew spill it out on Him.
It boils down to this - in my waiting for His provision - I have felt forgotten.
So I filtered my feelings through His Word...
"I would never forget you. See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands." Isaiah 49:15-16 NLT
Not only has He not forgotten; He won't do it - forget - in the future either... Okay, I got it. So He has NOT forgotten about me. But has He forgotten about what I am doing?? Remember those spinning wheels and that face plant into the brick wall?
Nope.
"For God is not unjust. He will not forget how hard you have worked for Him and how you have shown your love to Him by caring for other believers, as you still do." Hebrews 6:10 NLT
My feelings are just that. Feelings. They do not own me unless I allow them. They cannot conform me unless I let them. The truth is in the Word. The truth is what He says; not what I feel here in my circumstances.
There is one thing He has forgotten though. Yes, indeedy.
Because of Jesus, His cross and blood shed. Because of my remission of sin, repentance and belief in Him... He has forgotten something. Something He will never again remember.
"And I will forgive their wickedness, and I will never again remember their sins." Hebrews 8:12
If that doesn't make your heart sing a bit, well then I just don't know what might.
So today my griping and tears were answered and filtered through the Word. It went a little something like this, "You are not forgotten. Even if you are waiting. Your hard work will not be forgotten. Don't give up."
There is so much work that has to be done.
And yet I feel like here I am. Stuck. With my face shoved into a brick wall with wheels spinning and burning rubber underneath my feet. Going. NO. Where.
Or so it seems.
I have to tell ya, I have been telling God that a lot lately. It goes something like this and usually involves tears, "Hi, yes it's me again. Um, so, yeah... we are like still trying to make it to PNG and stuff. And so furlough is almost up and we are still waiting on You. We have so much work to do!! Please provide, like we know You can and will. But, if you wanna hurry a little bit that's okay. Actually it would be more than okay. Yeah, I really want you to hurry now. Cause we are running out of time. And if you don't wanna hurry that's okay too, but won'tcha cut us a little slack and give us something good? Something to keep our hope? A new partner? An increase in support? A way to pay for airfare? Won't you let me see even just a glimpse of the good You are going to do?"
Not real pretty, but it's my heart and He knows it and can take it... so I just
It boils down to this - in my waiting for His provision - I have felt forgotten.
So I filtered my feelings through His Word...
"I would never forget you. See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands." Isaiah 49:15-16 NLT
Not only has He not forgotten; He won't do it - forget - in the future either... Okay, I got it. So He has NOT forgotten about me. But has He forgotten about what I am doing?? Remember those spinning wheels and that face plant into the brick wall?
Nope.
"For God is not unjust. He will not forget how hard you have worked for Him and how you have shown your love to Him by caring for other believers, as you still do." Hebrews 6:10 NLT
My feelings are just that. Feelings. They do not own me unless I allow them. They cannot conform me unless I let them. The truth is in the Word. The truth is what He says; not what I feel here in my circumstances.
There is one thing He has forgotten though. Yes, indeedy.
Because of Jesus, His cross and blood shed. Because of my remission of sin, repentance and belief in Him... He has forgotten something. Something He will never again remember.
"And I will forgive their wickedness, and I will never again remember their sins." Hebrews 8:12
If that doesn't make your heart sing a bit, well then I just don't know what might.
So today my griping and tears were answered and filtered through the Word. It went a little something like this, "You are not forgotten. Even if you are waiting. Your hard work will not be forgotten. Don't give up."
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