my epiphany
I had an epiphany (or two this week, but I will only share one as not to scare you with what is happening inside my head and heart).
We took a personality typing test last week that told me my personality types are:
"determined and inspirational, strong doers and able to induce others to follow, bottom line people, are super sales people, love large groups, need a lot of recognition, talk too much, outgoing and active, are competent and make inspiring leaders and determined individuals..."
The list went on and on... and somethings applied (talking too much) and somethings didn't (you can figure that one out if you wanna. LOL)... but overall it was interesting to step back and see that I have recognizable gifts and weaknesses. It was good to be reminded that God created me unique for the task and life that He knew I would choose and that He would send me.
Here's the deal though. Since I have been at ICC I have seen that my being completely honest, confident, and outgoing - my greatest "strengths" - can also be my greatest "weakness" because they make me very vulnerable.
So last week in the midst of all this personality stuff one person made a very gentle and appropriate response to this struggle. She told me that my ability to be transparent was a strength. (What I wanted to respond with what that is was actually my inability to be anything but transparent. LOL)
Don't take what I am saying to be wrong now. This "transparency" doesn't allow me to be exempt from anything... everything that I do and say should always glorify God. However, I cannot doubt Him for who He has made me to be... being transparent can feel like being judged or hurt or targeted. What a beautiful reminder that this sweet friend gave me though... my transparency and honesty with who I am... this confidence comes from Him. It is He who has enabled me to find my self assurance - in Him. It can feel a little scary when others are a bit taken back by it... but He will heal any hurt that may come with being vulnerable and transparent.
That is about all I have to say about my epiphany. :)
We took a personality typing test last week that told me my personality types are:
"determined and inspirational, strong doers and able to induce others to follow, bottom line people, are super sales people, love large groups, need a lot of recognition, talk too much, outgoing and active, are competent and make inspiring leaders and determined individuals..."
The list went on and on... and somethings applied (talking too much) and somethings didn't (you can figure that one out if you wanna. LOL)... but overall it was interesting to step back and see that I have recognizable gifts and weaknesses. It was good to be reminded that God created me unique for the task and life that He knew I would choose and that He would send me.
Here's the deal though. Since I have been at ICC I have seen that my being completely honest, confident, and outgoing - my greatest "strengths" - can also be my greatest "weakness" because they make me very vulnerable.
So last week in the midst of all this personality stuff one person made a very gentle and appropriate response to this struggle. She told me that my ability to be transparent was a strength. (What I wanted to respond with what that is was actually my inability to be anything but transparent. LOL)
Don't take what I am saying to be wrong now. This "transparency" doesn't allow me to be exempt from anything... everything that I do and say should always glorify God. However, I cannot doubt Him for who He has made me to be... being transparent can feel like being judged or hurt or targeted. What a beautiful reminder that this sweet friend gave me though... my transparency and honesty with who I am... this confidence comes from Him. It is He who has enabled me to find my self assurance - in Him. It can feel a little scary when others are a bit taken back by it... but He will heal any hurt that may come with being vulnerable and transparent.
That is about all I have to say about my epiphany. :)
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