what I learned in first grade
"hanging on to every Word You speak, cause it's all that I need.
hanging on to every Word you say to light up my way...
hanging on as if it were my life.
I'm hanging on."
Brit Nicole
Today has been one of those days where I am just hanging on. Really. Honestly. Just by-a-thread hanging on. Jade and I are finishing her semester for math. I promise you. No lie. We are 4 questions away from being completely finished for the entire year (and what I pray will end up being the only year that I ever teach her!!) and Jade has had THE meltdown of her life. (Okay, so it was pretty much like that meltdown she has last week too, but still. It was pretty gross.)
I struggle watching Jade struggle. For one thing, I am just not a teacher. In reality, I am anything but a teacher. I wish I could figure out how to make things easier for her. Ways to teach her that "click" inside her pretty little head. But after almost the entire first grade year... I haven't mastered that yet. I just can't seem to get inside her brain. That makes me feel insufficient too. Which is a really hard place for a mom to be. Especially when your kid is still so little. Isn't this something I should be learning later on with her? Sometimes, I am worried about what lies ahead when what is now is so complicated. (Anyhow. I am positive that is a whole other blog post.)
The Holy Spirit prompted me to run to the Word. The only place where I can catch a glimpse of my "I-can-do-this" attitude. Even on a day when I am failing!
"I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength to do His work. He considered me trustworthy and appointed me to serve Him" 1 Timothy 1:12 NLT
Here are the things I see in this:
1. I am to be thankful for the task. Ouch.
2. I rely on the strength of Jesus to complete the work. His strength not mine!
3. I already have the strength I need for is has been "given" to me. (See that verb tense!?)
4. The work is not mine, but His. Again, His. Not mine.
5. He knew I could be trusted with the job.
6. He chose me specifically for this position.
7. This work given to me is meant as a service to Him. For His glory.
It seems to me that ONE thing that the Lord has effectively taught me through fumbling through teaching Jade for an entire school year is this, "I'm hanging on to every Word you speak, cause it's all that I need." Or - His Word is sufficient. It is sufficient to pull me through any and all situations. (Yes, even home schooling.) And if the Bible is all I need to carry me through this life than it is definitely worth making accessible to those we are still waiting.
hanging on to every Word you say to light up my way...
hanging on as if it were my life.
I'm hanging on."
Brit Nicole
Today has been one of those days where I am just hanging on. Really. Honestly. Just by-a-thread hanging on. Jade and I are finishing her semester for math. I promise you. No lie. We are 4 questions away from being completely finished for the entire year (and what I pray will end up being the only year that I ever teach her!!) and Jade has had THE meltdown of her life. (Okay, so it was pretty much like that meltdown she has last week too, but still. It was pretty gross.)
I struggle watching Jade struggle. For one thing, I am just not a teacher. In reality, I am anything but a teacher. I wish I could figure out how to make things easier for her. Ways to teach her that "click" inside her pretty little head. But after almost the entire first grade year... I haven't mastered that yet. I just can't seem to get inside her brain. That makes me feel insufficient too. Which is a really hard place for a mom to be. Especially when your kid is still so little. Isn't this something I should be learning later on with her? Sometimes, I am worried about what lies ahead when what is now is so complicated. (Anyhow. I am positive that is a whole other blog post.)
The Holy Spirit prompted me to run to the Word. The only place where I can catch a glimpse of my "I-can-do-this" attitude. Even on a day when I am failing!
"I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength to do His work. He considered me trustworthy and appointed me to serve Him" 1 Timothy 1:12 NLT
Here are the things I see in this:
1. I am to be thankful for the task. Ouch.
2. I rely on the strength of Jesus to complete the work. His strength not mine!
3. I already have the strength I need for is has been "given" to me. (See that verb tense!?)
4. The work is not mine, but His. Again, His. Not mine.
5. He knew I could be trusted with the job.
6. He chose me specifically for this position.
7. This work given to me is meant as a service to Him. For His glory.
It seems to me that ONE thing that the Lord has effectively taught me through fumbling through teaching Jade for an entire school year is this, "I'm hanging on to every Word you speak, cause it's all that I need." Or - His Word is sufficient. It is sufficient to pull me through any and all situations. (Yes, even home schooling.) And if the Bible is all I need to carry me through this life than it is definitely worth making accessible to those we are still waiting.
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