desperate

"Music is what feelings sound like." 

~anonymous

Tonight I have found the song that explains my feelings. You are sitting on the edge of your seat now, aren't you? Well, restrain yourself already! ;) Tonight, this is what I feel like. And my disclaimer is this - whether or not it is or is not my reality - this is where my heart is - completely and utterly - desperate. (And the "standing on the ledge waving my hands" is simply imagery. No worries!)

By the way, I am emotionally worn out (if you cannot already tell), and would appreciate a astronomical change to the circumstances in my life. Just saying... 

"Desperate" by Fireflight

Seek and you will find, they say

but I've been looking every day

for a way past this wall that's in front of my face.

I'm on my hands and knees searching for my faith.

I know there's so much at stake 

but I don't know if I can take one more pat on the back saying I'll be okay.

Can't you see my whole life is in disarray?

You've got me desperate.

I know You hear me,

Would You give me a sign?

Reel me in before I've fallen in line.

You've put me on a path I don't understand

I'm standing on a ledge waving my hands.

You've got me desperate (do You see me?)

Desperate (do You hear me?)

Desperate (will You help me?)

You've got me desperate.

I know You're my only hope

The only One who truly knows how it feels, what it's like when it all starts to fall

You're the One I can trust who hears when I call.

You've got me desperate.

I know You hear me,

Would You give me a sign?

Reel me in before I've fallen in line.

You've put me on a path I don't understand

I'm standing on a ledge waving my hands.

You've got me desperate (do You see me?)

Desperate (do You hear me?)

Desperate (will You help me?)

You've got me desperate.

Some things I'll never figure out

Until I let hope erase my doubt.

You've got me desperate...