tears in His bottle

He's not wasteful, careless, or indifferent. {You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. ~Psalm 56:8}

Sometimes (not today!) this partnership development life feels like it will never ever end... that I will be stuck in this SAME place of endless and shameless effort of trying to engage people with the need for Bible translation for forever. (PTL I am not self-advertising!... instead I am telling of His mighty work that needs to be done.) 

Anyhow it all feels a bit overwhelming most days. Ha ha ha - here's a good example of what I feel like most days... someone asks me which Winnie the Pooh character I am and I told them I was a cross between Rabbit (OCD clean freak!! oh dear me), Eeyore (manic depressive slump), Tigger (overly bouncing and excited about impacting the world for Jesus!!) and Owl (when I am feeling like a information geek sharing all my "wisdom" about missions... LOL).  

This verse was a sweet reminder to my heart today that my Heavenly Father is personally engaged with my emotionally traumatized heart... He cares. He is keeping record of my tears!!! He isn't indifferent. Wow. That blows my mind too... Especially when I think of how much I love my girls. I really really really do. They are my life. I would do anything for them, but I can only tolerate so much of their belly-aching and crying... especially when it is something that they just finished crying about.... I really do love them, but I can only take so much of the crying and complaining before I become indifferent. "Tough it up." "Stop whining." "Quit complaining." "If no one is bleeding then I don't wanna hear about it..." Praise God that He hasn't and won't ever feel indifferent with me... I cannot fathom the love that He has for me... besides who could love anyone more than I am capable of loving my children?! 

Only God can love me this much... 

This is the truth that has inspired me today to keep moving on. Keep pressing forward. 

Here's the ticket y'all. I am not any more worthy of His love than those who have never heard of this love... I will NOT stop pressing forward. They deserve to know. I will give my all to make sure His love letter is accessible ~ until all have heard ~!!