loud and clear contentment
"Does my heart always long for more than what God has provided? If so, why and what do I need to do to find contentment?"
Micca Monda Campbell
Woah, God. Hold up... I am striving for something that gives YOU glory so why must I be content with where I am?
Woops. My passionate heart to serve God has been trying to take over my ability to find true contentment with my place NOW. Marty and I keep telling each other that God is bringing us through what we are experiencing NOW to prepare us for what we are gonna need for our future. But... it seems that most of the time that even if I am able to be content in my misery it is only for brief seconds. It seems that Scripture and praying Scriptures have become my only safe place... while it is good that I am content in those intimate places - my circumstances are telling me that now especially this isn't enough.
Somehow I have to figure out how to be happy with what I am going through. So what is it that I need to do to find contentment?? The same thing that I have done before... take me out; put Him back in.
I have played this over and over again in my head all day and all I can find is this... use what He has already given you, Sara. Stop trying to control what might happen and how it might happen and when it will happen and train your brain to be thankful for what He has already proven. Things may seem more difficult than ever before, but that may be because they are in the here and now... Maybe.
A special friend explained to me what I am going through as a battle between my head and my heart. I keep letting my heart win. (Weird for me too since I am just not that much of an emotional freak until now...)
Here is more from the devotional:
"True satisfaction, in its purest form, is found in the wealth of who God is and the riches He graciously lavishes upon us.
Recently God’s been showing me that when I constantly want more than He has given me, it reflects a heart that is discontent. It’s like I’m telling God, “I’m not satisfied with what You have provided for me. I want more.”
In wanting more, I place undo pressure on myself in an attempt to get what God hasn’t provided. Naturally, anxiety is the result when I focus on things other than God and His will for my life."
Once again I must strip away ME from this whole process... reprogram and refocus on Him. I am so overwhelmed by His continual grace and forgiveness. Argh. It seems that I should have figured this out by now... :) I have tried to justify my discontent because I am not trying to achieve more, but rid my life of things... but essentially it's all the same though.
My head and heart check came loud and clear this morning through this devotional... loud and clear.
Micca Monda Campbell
Woah, God. Hold up... I am striving for something that gives YOU glory so why must I be content with where I am?
Woops. My passionate heart to serve God has been trying to take over my ability to find true contentment with my place NOW. Marty and I keep telling each other that God is bringing us through what we are experiencing NOW to prepare us for what we are gonna need for our future. But... it seems that most of the time that even if I am able to be content in my misery it is only for brief seconds. It seems that Scripture and praying Scriptures have become my only safe place... while it is good that I am content in those intimate places - my circumstances are telling me that now especially this isn't enough.
Somehow I have to figure out how to be happy with what I am going through. So what is it that I need to do to find contentment?? The same thing that I have done before... take me out; put Him back in.
I have played this over and over again in my head all day and all I can find is this... use what He has already given you, Sara. Stop trying to control what might happen and how it might happen and when it will happen and train your brain to be thankful for what He has already proven. Things may seem more difficult than ever before, but that may be because they are in the here and now... Maybe.
A special friend explained to me what I am going through as a battle between my head and my heart. I keep letting my heart win. (Weird for me too since I am just not that much of an emotional freak until now...)
Here is more from the devotional:
"True satisfaction, in its purest form, is found in the wealth of who God is and the riches He graciously lavishes upon us.
Recently God’s been showing me that when I constantly want more than He has given me, it reflects a heart that is discontent. It’s like I’m telling God, “I’m not satisfied with what You have provided for me. I want more.”
In wanting more, I place undo pressure on myself in an attempt to get what God hasn’t provided. Naturally, anxiety is the result when I focus on things other than God and His will for my life."
Once again I must strip away ME from this whole process... reprogram and refocus on Him. I am so overwhelmed by His continual grace and forgiveness. Argh. It seems that I should have figured this out by now... :) I have tried to justify my discontent because I am not trying to achieve more, but rid my life of things... but essentially it's all the same though.
My head and heart check came loud and clear this morning through this devotional... loud and clear.
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